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A Sunday Update

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Hi everyone, it’s been ages since I’ve posted and other than this week coming up my posting may still be pretty erratic.

Unfortunately towards the end of October Buddy took a turn for the worse and wouldn’t eat at all – it went that way for almost a month before – and it’s been a battle since. He was in the hospital for 4 days getting IV fluids and he was just so forlorn and depressed that I was worried that he wasn’t even going to make it past the fluids. I talked with the vet and we decided that he would get something called SubQ fluids instead which are fluids given just under his skin daily. In addition he’s getting antibiotics and anti nausea meds. He’s finally started eating a bit but not enough to keep him going without the fluids.

It’s been a heartbreaking time for us. It’s extremely difficult to watch him lose weight, not want to eat and just generally not be the dog I’ve always had. He’s tired a lot and sleeps quite a bit but when he’s awake he’s generally in pretty good spirits. The vet doesn’t think he’s in pain and he doesn’t usually act like he is – although sometimes he does when his tummy hurts. To watch him go downhill has to be one of the hardest things I’ve gone through. I had hoped for more time with him feeling better. Now I just hope for more time. I won’t let him suffer if it comes down to that but saying good bye to my puppy will be the hardest thing I will ever do.

Needless to say my blogging has been nonexistent. I just had no time – I was and still am exhausted -I’m not sleeping or eating well – and my concentration level has been pretty low. It just doesn’t seem important considering everything else going on. I have been reading some though and this week I will have reviews up all week. I have a few others to write for the week after if I can get time when Buddy is sleeping or we aren’t running around to the vet’s office. I’m not entirely sure where my blogging will take me when this is all over but my plan is to go back to when I first started this blog and just read and review things I want to and talk about them.

For now my blogging may be sporadic as I want to spend all the time I can with Buddy. I want to make sure I do all I can for him and keep him as happy and comfortable as I can. He’s my baby – those of you who follow my blog know that. You all know what he means to me and know how devastated I am by his illness. My heart breaks everyday but I’m very grateful for every extra minute and kiss I get from him.

Those of you who are the praying kind – I would appreciate prayers for my little guy. If I could even get 6 months with him – a year would be the best gift ever. I just want more time to love him and have him with me.

Thanks to those of you who have left messages here on my blog and those who have emailed me personally. You are all special people and I feel blessed to call you my friends.

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  1. I knew things had not been going well, and was so scared at hearing the update on Buddy. I am the praying kind and have been praying for the both of you. I've been through this 8 years ago, and I remember the pain. Making that decision is one of the hardest things you will do. Once our Meggie was gone, my husband would tell you that I cried every night for months and months. And we have never replaced her because I don't think she can be replaced. Please know my thoughts are with you.

  2. I understand the depth of love one can feel for a pet. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Darlene.

  3. My thoughts are with both of you. For many of us, pets are family. Stay strong Dar.

  4. Darlene, I'm so sorry for what you've been going through. I'm sure Buddy knows how much you love and care for him, so just stay by his side and enjoy each other's company. I'll be sending prayers your way.

  5. Oh Dar, I had a feeling it's been a tough few weeks… was almost afraid to read this update. I know how difficult this experience is. You and Buddy continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

  6. Dar, I am so sorry about Buddy. I figured something like this was probably happening-you poor thing! Prayers and thoughts for all of you! HUGS to you!

  8. I's so sorry and am praying for your Buddy. I dread going through something similar with my pup and my heart goes out to you and that you can get through this period and that he'll take to these new meds. No worries about blogging, priorities come first, do what you must for Buddy! *hugs*

  9. I just knew something bad was going on with Buddy. You know you are always in my heart and prayers.

  10. Darlene, you and your family and Buddy will be in my thoughts and prayers.

    As a fellow pet mommy, I know how difficult this is. Keep doing what you're doing and enjoy every moment you have with Buddy.

  11. For many of us our pets are an important part of the family and we understand exactly what you are going through. I had a feeling something was not right and was afraid when I saw this post. You and Buddy are always in my prayers. I know Buddy knows how much he is loved. He has been quite the fighter!

  13. Good to see a post Dar. I know things are so very tough. You know I love you and Buddy much. There are many out here that understand a deep love for a fur friend. Hang in there. I (we) love your blog and your reviews…. keep up the good work. Glad you have been able to read. Love and Sunshine.

  14. Like many have said, I too, have been concerned about how Buddy has been doing. Other pet lovers know how hard this is for you and understand what you are going through. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

  15. DAAAAR!!!!! So glad to hear from you! Thanks for emailing me, or you might have had a surprise visitor in Canada one of these days!
    I was so sorry to hear of The Buddsters rough days! I was and still am praying for him and you!
    You just blog when ever you can, and just know that we miss you and want you to be well and happy!

  16. It is sad to hear of the rough time Buddy…and of course you…have been having.
    I know what it's like and it is a very hard thing to deal with. Although it has been years, it seems like yesterday that I went through it with my sweet girl Maggie.
    My though are with you…

  17. Dar, I know how hard it has been with everything that has been going on with Buddy. I think you are an amazing doggy mom and that you are giving him the best care he can have. I know how tough it can be to have to make these kinds of decisions and to have to sit through it all while Buddy is feeling so bad, and I am praying for you. Well for both of you really. I am hoping that things begin to get easier on you and that you have all the time you need with your special little guy. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Take care and be well, my friend.

  19. Hi Darlene. My heart goes out to you. I know what it feels like to lose a precious little one. I currently have my own 'Buddy' (his name is Peppi, but my husband calls him Buddy) who has had some issues. He is our little boy and means the world to us. I hope you don't mind, but I would like to pray for you right here.

    Our dear precious Lord, I lift our sister up to you right now and her precious little Buddy. I pray a hedge of protection around them both and plead the blood of Jesus over them both. I pray that you will give Darlene peace at this time and Lord we know that you are the Divine Healer and we pray that you will touch little Buddy's body right now and heal him. Please let him have many more years to love and be loved by Darlene. I pray that You will keep both Darlene and Buddy in the palm of Your hand. In Jesus' most precious name, Amen.

    Smiles & Blessings,
    Cindy W.

    countrybear52[at]yahoo[dot]com

  20. I'm so sorry Buddy is still out of sorts. Illness takes its toll on everyone, even the ones that aren't sick. I hope he continues to be comfortable and that you are able to get some rest too.

  21. I will praying for you and Buddy. Spend as much time as you possibly can with Buddy. We'll be here supporting you, Dar. And I know Buddy knows when his Mommy is taking very good care of him. Sending lots of hugs to both of you.

  22. I've been wondering about you and Buddy, Dar. You're a great doggie mommy and and all of us here totally understand about your wanting to spend more time with him. My thoughts are with you and Buddy. Please do take care of yourself too, Dar!

  23. Dar,
    You know that I've been praying for buddy and you throughout this whole time. Take it one day at a time and remember we're thinking of you.

  24. Darlene, my thoughts are constantly with you. I am so sorry things have gotten worse for Buddy. It's so difficult to see them suffer so. You've done so much for him. He's so lucky to have you and you him. Our animals are true blessings in our life, aren't they? My cats and dog are like children to me too–so I completely understand. You have my prayers and if I could, I'd send you an endless stream of hugs.

  25. I just clicked over today because I realized it had been so long since I'd seen a post from you show up in my feed reader. I'm so sorry to hear that Buddy's having such a difficult time – I will keep both of you in my prayers.

  26. Oh Darlene, I am so sorry Buddy has been so poorly. I will definitely pray for you both and keep my fingers crossed that you get to spend a longer time with him. It brings tears to my eyes, to read about all you both have been through. Big hugs and lots of prayers to you.

  27. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Buddy, Darlene. I'm sure Buddy feels better just knowing how much you care about him.

  28. I'm so sorry about Buddy's illness. I'll keep him in my prayers. My cat's cancer just came back so I understand. It's so painful to go through. Warm thoughts to you and your family.

  30. Oh Dar, your up-date has me in tears. I feel so bad for Buddy and yourself. I feel so helpless. You know I am here for you and you are both in my thoughts.

    Love and Hugs!

  33. I have been and will continue praying for Buddy and for you. Take care of your little Buddy and yourself and do what you need to do.
    We'll be here for you when you need us.

    ~ Amy

  34. I'm so sorry to see that Buddy's being doing so poorly. I don't blame you for wanting to concentrate on him right now. You need to make sure he knows how special he is. I'll be praying for him and you.

  35. You and Buddy have been in my thoughts and prayers and will continue to be.
    Wish we could help.
    Give Buddy a hug from us.

  36. SubQ fluids were Charlee's friend for a while too when he was sick. I wish there were a miracle cure I could offer to help with buddy. I know how hard it will be for you to say goodbye to him, because I cannot even imagine saying goodbye to Charlee.

    Deciding to let Buddy go will be the hardest decision, and my heart goes out to you. I really wish I had some great advice, but just know that I'm thinking about you and buddy.

  37. Oh Darlene! I am so sorry to read this. I know how terrible this is to go through, but just be there for Buddy. He may be a dog but he knows whats up. Sending lots of prayers, good thoughts, and hugs your way. Talk to you when you can.