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Buddy, May 25, 2002 – October 22, 2010

October 23, 2010 by Darlene


One day 8 years and 5 months ago I walked into a pet store to find myself my very first dog. I walked over to the where the dogs were and there were these two gorgeous little black balls of fluff. The black balls of fluff were brother and sister and as I walked up to the cage I looked right into the eyes of the one who had both paws up on the window looking up at me. The clerk got him for me and put him in my arms- he snuggled in – and that’s how the little black ball of fluff named Buddy came to be my best friend and the true love of my life.

Those of you who read my blog regularly have seen so many pictures of Buddy over the years and were treated to stories as well. You also know that in April of this year he became sick – he had both kidney and liver failure- he didn’t have a chance right from the beginning. In September he spent some days getting IV fluids all day in the hopes of flushing his system so that he’d start eating again. Then we started doing SubQ fluids to keep him hydrated along with his meds. He started eating some – not enough – but it was enough that my hopes soared. The only problem is that with kidney/liver problems eating causes the waste levels to go up in the blood. So Buddy started to feel sick again from eating and consequently stopped again.

This past Sunday he started really not feeling good. He was breathing funny and just not himself. I took him to the vet on Monday and they made sure he was stable- I then saw my vet on Tuesday. The bad news came that day – the best thing I could do for my little man would be to put him down. He wasn’t going to get better no matter what else I tried and the only thing keeping him alive was the fluids. He had already lost a lot of weight – he went from a chubby 19 lb dog to 12.4 lbs by the end. I knew that the vet was right in my heart – since April my little man had lost his spunk and spark. He didn’t want to play anymore or have treats. At first his weight loss was gradual but this past week it wasn’t. I saw the changes happening over these months – I just wanted to pretend they weren’t there until I really couldn’t ignore them.

It was with an extremely heavy heart that I took my baby boy in last night to be put down. The night before he had such a bad night – he whimpered and cried most of the night. The vet told me to bring him in right away and he’d have a look at him and again told me that there was nothing I could do to make it better. He told me I had already done anything and everything possible to give my baby a bit more time. I had decided to take him home for the day and that was probably selfish because he would whimper and cry when he’d move or we’d pick him up. The night before and yesterday were horrible and I could not let him go through that again even though I didn’t want to let him go. We took him in the evening and I asked the vet again if he was sure I was doing the right thing and he said yes again. It was peaceful for Buddy- he actually licked my tears and kissed me before – something he hadn’t felt like doing this past week. I will never be able to forget though – it was the hardest thing I’ve ever done and even though I know I did what was best for him, I still feel guilty for doing it and wish I hadn’t. I’m glad I got to hold him through to the very end and I really hope he knew I was there still loving him.

My heart is broken. I hurt so bad that I can barely function – I never thought that anything could hurt as bad as this does. More than anything in this world I want my little Buddy back. I want to hold him in my arms again and kiss him. I want him back as he was -happy and healthy- the puppy I’ve shared all these years with you. I’m not yet sure how to go on without him. The house is empty and everywhere you look you can see Buddy. I’ve cried so many tears that I would think there were none left but there are.

I have to say a special thank you to my Page Turner friends. We started out as a book club many, many years ago and have gone from that to just best friends. So many of them have supported me with their love over the miles yesterday and today and for that I am very grateful. My bloggy friends who have come to mean so much to me – Staci, Kaye, Carla, Janel, Bonnie, Heather – you are awesome ladies and friends. Thank you so much for your continued emails of support. I have a special thank you to an author who has become a friend – Helen Hollick – you are a lifesaver my friend and I appreciate your care and support more than words can say.

I had to say good bye to my best friend last night. I don’t think I’ll ever heal right now and I don’t know how I’m going to live without Buddy. I never had kids – he was my kid and I loved him with abandon. I gave every ounce of love I had and more to him and I got it back tenfold. I will and do miss him more than words can possibly express. He will be in my heart forever and at this point I just want him back. I want to be able to hold him in my arms one more time and kiss him.

I hope you are in peace and no longer in pain Buddy. I miss you so much and I love you so much it hurts. You were my best friend, my little man and my special angel. I will love you forever and I hope I get to see you one day again…Mommy.


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  1. Bibliophile By the Sea says

    October 23, 2010 at 9:59 pm

    Dar, My heart goes out to you at this difficult time. My the happy memories and knowing Buddy is no longer in pain sustain you….HUGS

  2. Blodeuedd says

    October 23, 2010 at 10:22 pm

    Oh Dar, I am so sorry to hear this. But you did a brave thing, and what was best of Buddy even though it broke your heart. He is in a better place now, and he will always be in your heart.
    *hugs*

  3. Marie says

    October 23, 2010 at 10:40 pm

    I'm so sorry to hear this. My heart goes out to you. Take care.

  4. Anonymous says

    October 23, 2010 at 10:41 pm

    Hello Darlene,

    I just found your blog. I really almost cried reading your tribute to Buddy. He was SO lucky to have a loving person like you in his life. It sounds like Buddy was ready from the way he kissed and licked your face.

    In the last few years I have had a cat and a dog put to sleep. It's ridiculously hard because we love them so much. It's so wonderful in this world to have people in it who love and care for animals and realize the worth of our wonderful furry friends.

    Thanks for loving Buddy and animals and sharing your story.

    Best Wishes

  5. scottsgal says

    October 23, 2010 at 11:11 pm

    Oh I am so sorry for your loss. I've followed your adorable Buddy's story these past months and was so hoping for a happier outcome as well. It's such a painful decision but also the final selfless gift you gave your Buddy. May the coming days be easier and the memories you have of Buddy make your heart smile.

  6. Janel says

    October 23, 2010 at 11:11 pm

    I'm so sorry. Buddy is in heaven now and no longer in pain. Remember we're all here for you.

  7. bermudaonion says

    October 23, 2010 at 11:22 pm

    Oh Dar, I am so sorry to hear this. I know how much Buddy meant to you, so my heart is breaking for you right now. Buddy always knew you loved him – right up to the end. You were the best mommy he could ever have. Your tribute to Buddy brought tears to my eyes and I'm sending hugs your way. Take care of yourself.

  8. Liz Fichera says

    October 23, 2010 at 11:24 pm

    I am so very sorry to hear about your loss. *Hugs*

  9. Susan Helene Gottfried says

    October 24, 2010 at 12:14 am

    Oh, Dar…

    There aren't words. I'm crying with you; I know how much Buddy meant.

    Holler if you need me. I'm here, sending you loving vibes and hanging out of the way.

  10. Chrisbookarama says

    October 24, 2010 at 12:15 am

    So sorry to hear about Buddy. It's hard to watch our pets age and get sick. Our own elderly dog is having problems and I know we'll be facing these issues soon ourselves.

  11. Martha Lawson says

    October 24, 2010 at 12:41 am

    Dar, I am so sorry to hear this. My heart goes out to you, I am crying so hard right now I can hardly type. I will keep you in my prayers. Take comfort in the thought that Buddy is no longer in pain, even tho it is hard.

  12. Mary says

    October 24, 2010 at 12:42 am

    Dar, I'm so sorry about Buddy. You're right, it's a very hard thing to do but it was also the best thing for him. I know because we had to do the same thing for Murphy in July. It's the hardest decision we ever had to make but it had to be made.
    It will get easier even though it doesn't seem like it now. Sending you hugs and just know we're all thinking of you.

  13. Nise' says

    October 24, 2010 at 12:54 am

    My heart is breaking along with you Dar. I know how much you loved Buddy and that this is a huge loss for you. May God comfort you as you grieve. It is such a hard thing to make that decision and I am sorry.

  14. Florinda says

    October 24, 2010 at 1:07 am

    I am so sorry about Buddy, Dar. I have an idea of how you must be feeling; I had to say goodbye to my Gypsy earlier this year. It gets easier, but I still miss her. It's such a hard decision to make, even when it really is the right one. I'll be thinking of you both. Take care.

  15. Wanda says

    October 24, 2010 at 1:16 am

    Oh Dar, I'm so sorry to hear of Buddy's passing. Let the good memories of happier times together fill the void. I know how much you're hurting right now and wish there was something more I could say or do to comfort you. Just know that your friends keep you in their thoughts and prayers.

    {{HUGS}}

  16. CelticLady says

    October 24, 2010 at 1:28 am

    I am so sorry for your loss, I went through the same thing this past February with a cat we had for 18 years. The hurt does eventually go away but know you will have the good memories.. My husband wanted to get another car right away but I said no, but after crying for two days straight I agreed to "go look"..I am glad we did go look as we brought home Misty. She can never be a replacement but she has wiggled her way into our hearts…my thoughts are with you.

  17. Thoughts of Joy says

    October 24, 2010 at 1:41 am

    I'm so sorry, Dar. I hope your memories of Buddy bring you smiles soon.

  18. Carrie K. says

    October 24, 2010 at 1:50 am

    I'm so, so sorry, Dar. My prayers for comfort are with you.

  19. Jonita says

    October 24, 2010 at 2:11 am

    My sincerest condolences to you on the loss of your dear friend and family member.

  20. Julie at Outlandish Dreaming says

    October 24, 2010 at 3:34 am

    Dar, I am so sorry, I can only imagine the heartbreak you are going through. Try to remember, you did the best thing for him, he's happy now and no longer in pain, although right now, that's probably not much comfort. My heart goes out to you, hang in there and cherish your membories of Buddy. *hugs*

  21. Alice Teh says

    October 24, 2010 at 3:44 am

    Oh Dar… I'm so sorry to hear this. {{HUGS}} I was crying so hard I couldn't see the keyboard, so I had to stop looking at the monitor for a while and say a little prayer for both you and Buddy. You've been such a good, loving mommy to Buddy, and I'm sure he knows that. Thanks for sharing Buddy with us all this while and those are wonderful, wonderful memories.

  22. carla says

    October 24, 2010 at 4:22 am

    Alice said it so well.
    About the tears, and about you sharing your Buddy with us.
    We all loved him in our own way from afar, and looked forward to your posts with him.
    That was so sweet of him to tell you good bye. He knows how much you loved him. Don't ever feel guilty for easing his suffering.
    hugs,

  23. Amy says

    October 24, 2010 at 4:36 am

    I'm so sorry, Dar. Hugs and prayers, friend.

  24. Marg says

    October 24, 2010 at 4:38 am

    I am so sorry to hear this Dar. So sad that you have had to say goodbye to your little man.

  25. Lori says

    October 24, 2010 at 4:49 am

    What a beautiful and fitting tribute to Buddy, Dar. I lost my nearly 17 year old Sparky back in June and I know exactly how you feel – – it's like losing a child, particularly if your furbaby is your child.
    I will have you and Buddy in my thoughts and prayers – – I know that Buddy is happy and healthy, waiting to be reunited with his precious Mommy one day.
    Take care.

  26. Wrighty says

    October 24, 2010 at 5:51 am

    I so very sorry Dar. I know this was a painful decision but it sounds like it was the right one. Buddy knew you loved him and he loved you so much he was trying to comfort you at the end.

    We are all here for you, there are plenty of shoulders to cry on. Buddy was important to us too. He was so lucky to have you.

    {{Hugs}}

  27. Alyce says

    October 24, 2010 at 7:15 am

    I'm so sad for you and sorry about Buddy's suffering and passing. I have always loved reading about Buddy and seeing his photos on your blog. Your love for him truly shines through.

  28. Lenore says

    October 24, 2010 at 7:47 am

    I am so, so sad about this. Wishing you strength for the hard days ahead.

  29. Beachreader says

    October 24, 2010 at 11:43 am

    Oh Darlene I am so sorry – I know words aren't what you need right now, but please know that we are here for you.

  30. Sandy Nawrot says

    October 24, 2010 at 11:56 am

    Well, that brought the tears. Seven years ago we went through this with our first baby, Meggie. You must know that you did the right thing. Because you love him, you put him out of his pain. Knowing that always made me feel better about that awful decision. But after seven years, I still remember that day and I will never ever forget it (obviously, if I am sitting her crying). Let yourself hurt and cry and mourn. It's OK. If you ever want to get it off your chest, I'm here.

  31. Staci says

    October 24, 2010 at 12:24 pm

    (((hugs)))
    My heart is breaking for you…know that I'm thinking of you.

    Staci

  32. Mystica says

    October 24, 2010 at 12:48 pm

    My heart is so sad for you. It was a brave thing you did and Buddy is not in pain anymore. Prayers for you from me. I know how sad you must be feeling as I also lost my dog on the 31st of August.

  33. mariag says

    October 24, 2010 at 12:52 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss.
    My heart goes out to you.

    RIP Buddy

  34. JoAnn says

    October 24, 2010 at 12:59 pm

    Oh Dar, I am so sorry! My heart goes out to you, please know you've done the best for Buddy. Tears in my eyes as I type this…
    ((((HUGS))))

  35. Eve Marie Mont says

    October 24, 2010 at 1:12 pm

    Darlene, I read your post with tears streaming down my face–what a lovely tribute to Buddy and the love you had for each other. I am so sorry for your loss, and I hope Buddy is running and playing wherever he is, pain free and happy.

  36. Trish says

    October 24, 2010 at 2:12 pm

    Oh Darlene. I am so sorry to read this post this morning and I know you must be completely devestated. Praying that Buddy is in a happier place where he doesn't feel any pain. Hugs to you–I'll be thinking about you a lot.

  37. Helen says

    October 24, 2010 at 2:36 pm

    Dsrlene, it was sweet of you to mention me, thank you, but I have done so very little to comfort you – I wish I could do more.
    I know exactly what you are going through. I have had many, many four legged friends and losing each one – from a cat to a big horse – is not easy. I had to put one of my cats down two weeks ago, Kitty was 20 years old and was struggling to "keep her dignity". I've also sat with a dying horse's head in my lap waiting for the man to come and take her pain away. It's hard to lose a friend, but the pain will ease, although the hole will always be there. The look in their eyes when you say goodbye is love and gratitude. Love and gratitude for giving them a short but wonderful life, and love and gratitude for being strong enough to let them go and be rid of their pain. That is the last, truest, act of love that we can give our animal friends.
    Buddy is with your God, Darlene, running around again pain free. And his little heart will always be with you. Always.
    x

  38. Helen says

    October 24, 2010 at 2:43 pm

    I have shared this little prayer with a lot of friends over the years (including Darlene) I've often adapted it to what is needed – dog, cat, hose, friend. It's one of those prayers that says it all really. I'll post it here because I think it may of help someone who is also grieving.

    I’ll lend you for a little while.

    I’ll lend you for a little while, a dog of mine, God said,
    For you to love while he’s alive, and mourn for when he’s dead.
    It may be one or several years, or maybe less than these,
    But will you, ‘til I call him back, take care of him for me, please?

    He’ll bring you love to gladden you, and should his stay be brief
    You shall have his memories, and solace for your grief.

    I cannot promise he will stay, since all on Earth return,
    But there are lessons taught down there, I want my dog to learn.

    I’ve looked this wide world over, in my search for teacher’s true,
    And from the throngs that crowd life’s lanes, I have selected you.

    Now will you give him all your love, and not think labour vain?
    Nor hate me when I come to call, and take him back again?

    Will you shelter him with tenderness and love him while you may?
    And for the happiness you’ve known, forever grateful stay?

    But when the angels call for him, much sooner than you planned,
    Brave the bitter grief that comes, and please, try to understand.

    I’ll lend you, for a little while, a dog of mine, God said.

  39. Vivienne says

    October 24, 2010 at 2:57 pm

    Dar, it has taken me ten minutes to come to myself and stop the tears falling after reading this beautiful poignant tribute to Buddy. For the last two years, many of us have loved reading about Buddy and his antics and to read this today, made me cry my eyes out. I feel your pain, and wish I could be there to give you a hug and wipe away your tears. I really am truly sorry Dar.
    The hardest thing to do, yet it was the best thing for Buddy.He is no longer suffering and now is happy and free to run in Heaven.
    Big, big hugs Dar.

  40. holdenj says

    October 24, 2010 at 3:29 pm

    I am so sorry to hear about Buddy, I've enjoyed your pics and my heart just goes out to you this weekend.

  41. Melissa says

    October 24, 2010 at 3:57 pm

    Oh, Dar, I am so, SO sorry. I absolutely love dogs and always enjoyed sharing in your stories and pictures of Buddy and so I read this post in tears, myself. I hope you are able to find peace in the fact that Buddy is no longer in pain and that he still loves you as much as you love him. Big hugs to you.

  42. Karen B says

    October 24, 2010 at 4:36 pm

    Buddy had a wonderful life with you. May all the memories help to ease the ache in your heart.

  43. estrella05azul says

    October 24, 2010 at 4:48 pm

    I'm so sorry for your loss Darlene, but it was the right choice, so never think it wasn't!
    I adore my pets too (3 cats, 1 bunny) and have no idea what I'll do without them one day, so I understand how you must feel.
    Sending comforting thoughts your way *hugs*

  44. Cindy W. says

    October 24, 2010 at 5:18 pm

    Darlene, my heart goes out to you in the loss of Buddy. I know while he is no longer in this life he will always live within your heart. I know that not everyone can understand the pain and loss you are feeling right now. Some people don't look at animals the way you obviously do and as I do. My Peppi is my little boy, the first dog my husband and I had together. I've had five dogs in my lifetime and saying good bye to four of them was the hardest thing I've ever done. But I know I loved them well and I was well loved in return. Just as I know that Buddy was loved well and you were loved well in return. There is something about the unconditional love that a dog gives their family that so strongly resembles the love that our Father in Heaven gives to us. I pray that God will tend to your grieving heart during this time and give you peace. May He wrap His arms around you and give you comfort.

    In God's love,
    Cindy W.

  45. Jenn says

    October 24, 2010 at 5:52 pm

    I'm so sorry to hear that your little guy is with you no longer. I know he will always have a place in your heart. I hope you take solace in the fact he is no longer in pain and in doggie heaven. I'll keep you and Buddy in my thoughts today.

  46. softdrink says

    October 24, 2010 at 7:00 pm

    I am so sorry, Dar.

  47. Carol M says

    October 24, 2010 at 7:53 pm

    Dar, I'm so sorry! I'm new to your blog so I haven't seen all the pictures or heard all the stories about Buddy. I do, however, feel your pain and I do know how hard it is to deal with this. Not long ago I went through the same thing with my kitty, Mittens. What you did was something that had to be done and Buddy understands that because he loves you. When the time is right you will find a new little baby and will give him a good home. I'm sure this is what Buddy would have wanted. I now have two new babies to love. It helps. Take care. Hugs, Carol

  48. Suzanne says

    October 24, 2010 at 8:42 pm

    Dar, my heart goes out to you… I'm crying through this comment because I know just how painful it all is… We went through the same thing with our little lady, and even though the vet assured me it was the right thing to do, I felt such guilt and pain.

    I'm sending a big hug your way, and hope your happy memories will comfort you…

  49. Beth(bookaholicmom) says

    October 24, 2010 at 9:17 pm

    Dar..I know all to well what you are feeling and my heart hurts for you. You did the right thing..Buddy is now free of pain and running and playing in heaven. I am so sorry and I am holding you up in prayer. You were the best mommy and Buddy loved you for it! I'm sending hugs and prayers.

  50. Zibilee says

    October 24, 2010 at 10:40 pm

    Dar, I know what you are going through and have the deepest sympathy for your loss of Buddy. Please know that you did the right thing and that you gave Buddy the best life he could have possibly had. You loved him and cared for him like he was your child, and I know that he knew that too. You are in my prayers and thoughts and I share this grief with you. Please take care of yourself, my friend, and if you need me, I am here.

  51. Holly (2 Kids and Tired) says

    October 24, 2010 at 10:42 pm

    I am so sorry Darlene.

  52. Melody says

    October 25, 2010 at 2:29 am

    I'm so sorry, Dar! My heart goes out to you at this difficult time. You've been a wonderful mommy and I'm sure Buddy knew that. {{Hugs}}

  53. Bonnie says

    October 25, 2010 at 2:32 am

    Dar, I am so sorry there are no words for your loss of Buddy. This is such a beautiful tribute to him and your love for him…it brought tears to my eyes. Your love for each other was unconditional and he truly had the best mommy a doggie could have. I'm here for you my friend, you are surrounded by love and prayers!

  54. brendajean says

    October 25, 2010 at 7:46 am

    So, so sorry for your loss. It feels like a loss to all of us as well. You are in my prayers:)

  55. Jenn's Bookshelves says

    October 25, 2010 at 1:32 pm

    Dar-
    I admire you for having the strength to do what was right for poor, dear Buddy. I know you are in a great deal of pain right now, but it will get easier.

    Love you lots!

  56. Serena says

    October 25, 2010 at 2:25 pm

    I'm so sorry to hear about Buddy. I know how much he meant to you. I know you did the best thing for him. At least he is no longer suffering, which was hard for him to go through and for you to watch.

    I wish I could be there to give you big hugs and tell you that it will be ok someday, but its a tough road –grief.

    Just remember all the exciting fun times you had and how much he adored you and you him.

    I'll be thinking of you always.

  57. Anna says

    October 25, 2010 at 2:39 pm

    Oh, Dar, I'm so sorry. I hope all the good memories you shared and the love of all your friends helps you through this rough time. ((HUGS))

  58. Kristen says

    October 25, 2010 at 9:04 pm

    Dar, I am so very sorry. Know that you did the right thing even though it broke your heart. And I have to believe that the furry members of our families will be waiting for us at the end of our days to welcome us home with a wag and a lick.

  59. Chèli says

    October 25, 2010 at 9:16 pm

    I too have no children, and had a "Buddy" named Pancho. When we had to send him to Doggie heaven, I was lost. People wonder why I never got another dog, no dog could replace him. I understand your pain.

    Chèli
    Cheli's Shelves

  60. Pamela Keener says

    October 25, 2010 at 10:05 pm

    I am so very sorry that you had to make this decision. I know it was the hardest one you ever had to make. My heart goes out to you & I so wish I could hug away your pain. Buddy is now running free at the rainbow bridge in the sky I truly believe that. Take care Darlene.
    Love & Hugs,
    Pam

  61. Ti says

    October 25, 2010 at 10:43 pm

    Dar, it's always such a tough decision to put a pet down. I feel for you.

  62. Sherri says

    October 26, 2010 at 1:21 am

    Dar, I was so sorry to hear about Buddy. My heart goes out to you! I have lost 4 dogs in my life and each time it has been extremely hard. Take care!

  63. Elisabeth says

    October 26, 2010 at 1:56 am

    I am so sorry for your loss. Having to make the decision to put a beloved pet down is SO difficult. I am sending you a HUG! Buddy will be missed.

  64. Lisa says

    October 26, 2010 at 3:40 am

    Oh, Dar, I'm so sorry! How lucky you and Buddy were to have each other for so long. Please do not feel guilty–you did the right thing. Buddy's last kisses were his way of saying "thank you" for being able to let him go so he wouldn't have to suffer and for all you have done for him.

  65. Veens says

    October 26, 2010 at 8:01 am

    I am so sorry Dar, I am so very sorry. I couldn't help the tears today… I was hoping that Buddy would be lright soon… but somewhere in my heart I knew, the time was near for him..

    I had my heart broken when Tuffy, my best friend ever died of a tumor in his head.. he was the only loving friend I ever had.. I loved my doggie so much… and what made it so hard was that i was not with him, none of us were… he died alone.. poor poor poor baby of mine died alone…. we were shifting from one place to another.. if I were not moving for my education, i think he would have been with use now.. he died..and i still feel so guilty.

    Buddy was very fortunate… you were with him all the while.. Wherever he is, he knows you did what was best for him…he loves you very much, Dar.. and i am sure.. he will want you to know that!

    I am praying for you, Dar. I hope God helps you heal and move ahead with the beautiful memories of Buddy.

  66. Molly says

    October 26, 2010 at 11:02 am

    Dar – I am so so sorry! Buddy was a very lucky boy to have such a loving caretaker. It is obvious that he loved you as much as you loved him. You did the right thing; you ended his suffering at the sacrifice of your own happiness. It was a very self-less act you did.

    Thoughts and prayers are with you …

  67. Lezlie says

    October 26, 2010 at 12:16 pm

    I wish more than anything that I could take all the hurt away. Know that we are thinking of you.

    Lezlie & Peter

  68. itsJUSTme says

    October 26, 2010 at 5:46 pm

    Oh babe! I am soo soo sorry.
    I do know what you are feeling and going through, I've been there.
    You have done a very brave thing. I know you don't feel very brave right now, but you know it will get better. You did what was best for Buddy. He is in a better place now. He can run through happy fields forever! You have so many great memories of him as well as lots of pictures. Remember the good times!
    My heart and prayers are with you!

  69. naida says

    October 26, 2010 at 9:08 pm

    Dar I am so sorry. Reading your tribute brings tears to my eyes.
    I always enjoyed your posts mentioning Buddys actics and his cute photos. I know how much he meant to you.
    (((hugs)))
    You were a wonderful mommy to him and he was very lucky. Its amazing how much love we have for our pets and how they love us in return, always unconditionally.
    I am sending a prayer your way.

    http://thebookworm07.blogspot.com/

  70. Suko says

    October 26, 2010 at 9:30 pm

    What a beautiful tribute to your best friend, Buddy! He sounds like such an exceptional companion, and I am so sorry for your loss, Darlene. Hugs to you!

  71. Nymeth says

    October 27, 2010 at 6:53 am

    I can't tell you how sorry I am, Dar 🙁 I'm sitting here in tears and feeling completely unable to find the right words. Sending much sympathy and love your way.

  72. Poppy Q says

    October 27, 2010 at 9:40 am

    Darlene, I haven't met you before, but have been a lurker for a while. I just wanted to say that I am touched by the beautiful post about your boy Buddy. You sure gave him a happy and loved full life.

    I understand your grief, I felt so bad when I had my cat Puss put down in the same circumstances. 5 years on, the pain has lessened but I still miss her. I know that she would be pleased that I opened my home to my new girl Poppy Q.

    Hugs

    Julie and Poppy Q

  73. Sandra K321 says

    October 27, 2010 at 9:03 pm

    Oh, I have been away for a few days and just saw this post. I know it was a tough decision to let Buddy go, but he is no longer in pain. He knew you loved him as much as he loved you. You did everything possible for him and I'm sure he knew it. Just remember him as he was before he started feeling sick and all of the good times you had with him.

  74. samantha.1020 says

    October 28, 2010 at 12:30 am

    I'm so sorry Dar! My heart broke just a little reading this…I can't imagine how you must feel. We will all miss Buddy and you'll be in my prayers!

  75. S. Krishna says

    October 28, 2010 at 1:37 pm

    Dar, I'm so sorry. Your post brought tears to my eyes. I can't imagine how much pain you're in right now.

    HUG.

  76. Linda Jacobs says

    October 29, 2010 at 5:35 pm

    I'm having a hard time hiding my tears from my students. I have a few minutes while they are taking a quiz so thought I'd check in with you only to read of Buddy's end.

    You wrote a beautiful tribute to him here. I hope in some way it helped you.

    Sending waves of strength to you!

  77. Kaye says

    October 30, 2010 at 2:40 pm

    beautiful post, Dar. I just got home from hospital Wednesday night and still have not too much strength. just want to let you know you and Buddy have been in my thoughts and I'll e mail you when I feel a little stronger. For now, love and hugs, my dear friend.

  78. Becky says

    October 31, 2010 at 3:29 am

    Dar, I'm so sorry about Buddy. I'm sure we don't understand even a fraction of how much he meant to you, but know that we are all sending you love from wherever we are all at. I hope you are doing all right. I've been offline for a bit, so when I noticed your post I was so sad, and had to get in touch. Please take care!

  79. lilly says

    November 1, 2010 at 9:45 am

    Dar, I am so very very sorry. I know how much Buddy was to you. It's such a terrible loss and my heart aches for you and your pain. I'll be thinking and praying for you so that the pain eases and you can get better. You'll get through it sweetie.

  80. LisaMM says

    November 1, 2010 at 4:57 pm

    Dar, My heart goes out to you. Buddy had the best mommy in the world. I hope you are doing a little better each day. Take care.

  81. Teddy Rose says

    November 2, 2010 at 5:48 am

    I am so sorry for your loss Dar. I know how much you and Buddy love each other. Take comfort that you did the very best you could for him. That's all any parent can do.

    XXOO

  82. Jen - devourer of books says

    November 2, 2010 at 7:06 pm

    Dar, I'm so sorry for your loss, I know this is something that has been on your mind and heart all year.

  83. avisannschild says

    November 4, 2010 at 4:46 pm

    Oh Dar, I'm so so sorry to hear about Buddy. I lost my beloved cat, Thelma, last December (and like you I had to make the difficult decision to put her down) and I still miss her every day. My heart goes out to you in this difficult time.

  84. My Carolina Kitchen says

    November 4, 2010 at 6:10 pm

    Oh my gosh, I feel your pain. We had to put our baby (well if you can call a collie a baby) down several years ago. It was the hardest thing we ever had to do, but she died peacefully in our arms.

    I thought I would never recover. Four legged children are the only children I've ever had.

    Your are in my thoughts and prayers. Buddy looked like a great friend.
    Sam

  85. Jennifer (Crazy-for-Books) says

    November 5, 2010 at 4:30 pm

    Your tribute brought tears to my eyes. Know that he is happily playing at the Rainbow Bridge and waiting for you to join him someday.

    I have 3 dogs and one of them looks a lot like Buddy (he is a charcoal gray miniature schnauzer) and my heart just breaks thinking about losing one of them, so my heart goes out to you. May you find peace in knowing that he is no longer in pain.

    ((HUGS))

  86. Missy B. says

    November 7, 2010 at 11:51 am

    Oh, Dar. I am so sorry. There are no words that can comfort you at this time, I know. All you want is Buddy back. Just know this: Buddy loved you with all of his being, and still continues to love you, for giving him a lifetime of love, and allowing him release from his suffering. I've been through this many times, have questioned myself many times, and always come back to the same conclusion; it was the right thing to do. Ride the waves of your grief….like the tide, it will ebb and flow…. be better one day, painful the next. I don't believe that we ever get "over" losing a pet…we just get "used" to them not being there. I'm here for you…send an email to me if you need me. You and Buddy are in my thoughts and prayers.

  87. Booksnyc says

    November 8, 2010 at 1:51 am

    I have tears in my eyes reading your post – my thoughts are with you at this difficult time.

  88. Toni says

    November 9, 2010 at 2:07 am

    Dar..I have read this in the email…and here a few times. I can always barely get through it.. finally got to read more of the comments today. You are so loved and thought off. Buddy is missed. I hurt for you at this time. Nothing can make that pain go away…. Goodbye Buddyjo. xoxoxo

  89. Stephanie Dray says

    November 11, 2010 at 11:21 pm

    Oh, this breaks my heart. Having lost a beloved thirteen year old cat of mine, I remember how it felt to be just where you are now. It will get better, but this is going to hurt for a long time.

  90. Bonnie says

    November 14, 2010 at 7:39 pm

    Dar, I've been thinking of you and emailed and I just want you to know I'm so sorry that you've lost your Buddy. This is a beautiful tribute and it touched my heart. You are so well loved by your blogging friends the comments here are truly amazing. Take time for yourself and know that we're all here to support you!

  91. Susan Audrey says

    November 14, 2010 at 8:42 pm

    Dar, you are in my prayers. Pups are so special and I know you will always miss and remember your Buddy. Take care of yourself and know that lots of us out here appreciate you and will keep you in our thoughts during this difficult time.

  92. Dorothy says

    November 15, 2010 at 1:33 am

    I am sitting here with tears in my eyes. My baby, Cassie, has tumors and I can't let her go but each day that goes on, I know it isn't getting better. I don't know how we're going to handle this. I can't put her down. Someone else would have to do it, then it would be the absolute last thing. It's just so sad. I'm sorry for you, dar..I know this had to be the most painful thing you've ever gone through. Sending hugs!!!!

  93. Jo-Jo says

    November 20, 2010 at 7:04 pm

    Oh Dar, I don't know where I was that I missed this post last month but I am so sorry for your loss. I know how much that little guy meant to you.

  94. Darlene says

    December 5, 2010 at 10:31 pm

    I just want to say thank you to you all for leaving such kind comments on Buddy's post. I know many of you have been with me almost from the beginning of my blog and have gotten to know him. He was a very special dog and I miss him so much – my heart hurts each day without him. I thank you all for your thoughts, prayers, emails and support. I appreciate it more than I can ever say.

  95. Esme says

    December 15, 2010 at 6:11 am

    Dar, I have not been hear in awhile. I am so sorry to read about Buddy. I feel your pain and your heartache. Pets are a part of our lives and family. May Buddy be resting in peace. xoxo Esme.

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